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To Be Honest Tuesday...

To be honest, have you ever just sat back & wondered how different your life would be if you met your significant other earlier in life or if you got that one job in a different town, etc?  I'm sure that you have wondered that & I've been wondering that a whole lot lately.  If Goose gave me a second look the first time we met (yes, we met while he was going through his divorce from PPB but I worked for his divorce attorney, probably not the best time to pick someone up), how different would the girls be today if I had entered the picture when they were younger.  Would Goose & I have any children together?  What if I didn't lose the baby we did have together?  Would we have stayed together or was the loss what held us together?

I know that it's not good to be wondering "what if" but from time to time, everyone does & this is a time I've been thinking a lot about it especially the baby part.  Who would Jackson Scott/Cadence Lillian be?  Would he/she have my calm demeanor or Goose's craziness?  How would Sunshine be as a big sister?  What would be his/hers favorite song to dance to be?  Would Trouble be around more & behave?

Tons of questions that I'll never have the answers to.  Do I like my life the way it is?  Of course but there is always that thought of "what if"...


  1. I think that wondering "what if" from time to time is natural... we're curious beings! It's just not good to DWELL on it in my opinion.

    1. You're absolutely right, my friend. :)

  2. I never knew about this. I don't know any details, but I'm sorry you are still hurting or "wondering" about your baby. They are belated, but please accept my condolences to you and Paul.

    1. Thank you. You are the only family member that knows now. My mom doesn't even know. It was when Paul & I were first dating so, in some way, I guess it was kind of a blessing cuz we didn't know that where we were headed. Plus, I wasn't that far along & that's why I didn't tell anyone as I wanted to wait...guess that was a good thing.

      Love & miss you lots!


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