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Words of Wisdom Wednesday...

I could not agree with this more.  Words only get you so far, it's the action that really means something.  You can talk until you're blue in the face about how you're gonna do this & that but until you start the action to change, I don't believe it.  I don't believe it at all.

I cannot even tell you how many times I have told this to Trouble & she says that she wants to be better & do better, blah, blah, blah.  However, her actions are the complete opposite.  I don't even believe anything she says anymore, I'm so tired of having my hopes up that she's gonna be the good person I know that she is & have them crushed by her lashing out at someone - Paul, me, Sunshine, her grandparents, her teachers, her principal - when she isn't getting her way.  It's horrible.

I'm at a loss with her, I just don't know what to do anymore.  I love her & I'm worried about her but at this time, I want nothing to do with her cuz she has caused me so much pain (emotionally & physically).  I know that I'm the adult & I need to look past all the crap that she has done but it's just not me she's doing this to & I'm scared that she's gonna take it too far & end up in jail or the morgue.
I just wish that she would act on what she's told me & get her shit together.  I've done all that I can do without strapping myself to her to make sure that she's making the right decisions.  Right now, I feel that the only options in our situation is that she goes to in-patient to get her behavioral/mental problems under control or I have to leave & I really don't want to do that but I cannot continue to live in a home that I do not feel safe in due to a sixteen year old.  It's sad & it kills me but I just cannot see any other options.  :(


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